twenty fucking four !!!

I had seen this on someone elses blog and thought it was a very very cool idea. And since the opportunity presents itself, you see me do this.

1] I am very thankful for some of the friends I have made over the years. Some bad choices too, but then they've only helped me shape up. [well, hopefully]

2] I am super sensitive. Get ticked off with the most stupidest of things and can hold grudges or stay hurt for suprisngly long periods

3] I havnt been in a proper relationship for the last 6 years now.

4] So techincally, I have been in only one relationship

5] I have very little or no patience with kids and takes a lot of self pressurizing to stay calm around my neice and the poor child is a doll.

6] Interior Design is my passion, is my obsession is my religion. But I always have this morbid fear I am not good at what I do. But I am also aware I am better than many and theres always gonna be someone better or worse. I am still scared tho, of getting any worse.

7] I have sort of given up what I wanna do in life, to pursue my family business and there are days when I wanna cry and jump off, but I have got to admit, there are days when the satsifaction in the eyes of my parents just covers up for it all.

8] I shop for clothes way more often then required. I have four wardrobe full of clothes and I wear only 1/4th of them. I have clothes as old as three years old and I havnt even worn them once. The same follows for shoes. The same follows for sunglasses. In that order.

9] Threesome Done. Foursome Done. Orgy Done. [ Blush ]

10] I took close to four years to forget one guy I loved. Unfortunately even today, I cant seem to erase his memory entirely. No, I dont love him or miss him anymore but I still seem to remember him.

11] In school, I hated the headboy. He lived in the same bdlg as me, had grown up with me and *cough* we even fooled around. I was bullied by him. During a seminar once, when I went out to pee, I threw a one of his shoes away. He never found out who did it. And, I am not guilty.

12] My father caught me masturbating when I was in std Xth. Oh so embarassing

13] In Australia, I did everything. I worked as a steward in an Indian Restaurant. I worked in a Mall as a cleaner and even went cleaning offices. I am glad that stage in my life is over. Very glad.

14] I dont read. I dont listen to much music. I dont watch that many movies. I do speak a plenty lot over the phone and when I am not, I day dream. A plenty lot.

15] I still havnt learnt how to use AutoCad. Dont ask me why ?! I dont have an answer.

16] I have never had an operation. Never. I loathe hospitals. They drive me sick.

17] Cynical, Sarcastic, Caring, Romantic, Hopeful, Perplexed, Eclectic ME ME ME ME !!!!

18] I miss my life in Australia. But I am not too sure, I'd like it if I were there today.

19] I can never date/befriend a person who doesnt speak well enough. Its an instant turn off. Its rude, I know but it turns me off endlessly.

20] I have been physically abused in a relationship. And defense is not always easy. Just not as easy as it seems.

21] I hate not being tall enough

22] I hate maintaining relationships [of any matter] for the sake of it. I cant. I should learn. I have tried but I cant.

23] My first, very first memory is of my grandmama staring at me. My mothers mum. I am in the craddle and she's looking at me. I wonder if thats real, but I try hard and that image never goes away.

24] I was born exactlty 24 years ago today.

P.S:- Stupid Blogger. Its fucking 4.34 am on the morning of 19th August 2006, my happy budday day and it's showing August the 18th on the freakin post. stupid stupid stupid blogger.